I'm getting a little paranoid lately... with all the exams coming up. Friday- piano lesson as usual, . Sat-Piano Theory Exam. Sun - Jap Exam. It's been so long since i have exam/test continuous for 3 days. To me piano lesson is a test itself coz i gotta pratice alot alot alot just to get half a song right and usually by the next day i'm gonna get it abit wrong here and there again.
Why get paranoid? coz right after grad, i choose to finish up up all of gr8 piano so i have about half a year b4 the gr8 exam and b4 i'm ready for Uni. i planned to spend it on piano, plus jap and cosplaying..n see whatever else i wanna learn or do. Then, yars, u can guess... with no sch, not much push (except for my piano teacher and knowing i've got a giant exam coming up) i started slacking bad....till i realised i gotta buck up or else i'd never pass, then only i started praticing hard, esp scales and all tt shit memo work. Then... the new news of a mini sch performance thingie in dec was told to me. Exam songs not allowed. the 2 songs (originally 3, teacher gave me discount)must be somewhere near my level (gr8). So i gotta pratice like siao char bo to get the songs well enuff to not play wrong when i'm nervous. Hard stuff, coz like i said, i take friggin long to get a part right, only to get it half right the next day again.
Makes me wonder if god's purposely putting me thru all these coz i slacked too much even though i told others i decided ganbatte to complete and pass the whole ting. >.<>.<