Define expire. My dictionary says that 1-(of something that lasts for a time) come to an end, 2- die. Everything in the world expires... be it milk, food, bulbs, plants blab la bla.... and HUMANS. It occurred to me that, I’ve never really heard anyone say that ‘ (insert person’s name) is going to/ already expired’ or at least I’ve just never came across it. It sounds damn weird doesn’t it?
Yea, maybe it’s me just being bo liao today but I think it was the best word to describe what i felt in the past not so long ago, but yet feels so far. I had felt very exhausted, robotic and plastic....bla bla... on top of that, empty. No one, besides my mum noticed, or they just did’nt bothered saying anything. That smile on my face was never really just for show, until I feel literally that everything was just black and white. A very efficient robot took over and carried my life on the way it should be, while I locked out my thoughts on things I want to do, things I really wanted to happen and stuff like that. The point is, that time, I felt expired. I’ve finally found the exact work to place in the blank of what I felt - expired.
I remember that day when a lecturer when up to me and say ‘ you look sad, what’s wrong?’, and I was literally surprised that he said that AND the fact he said it in the middle of a class with everyone present =.=”... anyway, Who won’t be surprised? Especially when you thought u were perfectly fine. Now thinking back, I was not fine at all. The life I wanted and deserved wasn’t there. Things were’nt going the way I wanted it to be. How could I have forgotten that the life I wished to have then was supposed to be meaningful, fun and adventurous?? Looking back now made me realize I’ve missed out more than I can imagine, and that I could never return to the past and change things. These past few days in uni made me realize this much more clearer than ever. How could I be fine? Had I retreated from reality subconsciously? Have I buried everything I wanted till I forgot about it?? Was that why at a certain point nothing seems to interest me anymore??
Somehow, my gut feeling says ‘yes, yes. . . YES’
Don’t worry about this, I’m being emo and it’s all in the past and I just wanted to have this post so I wont ever ever forget that word to describe the past me, and that phrase of my life. That me had already expired long ago, and this current me would not let history repeat itself again.
Contemporary design issue has the least project to do, but it’s the one eating up my time the MOST. 1500words essay to write, with an absolutely empty mind... ACK... and I hate my lecturer, she gave me 15/30 for my online participation, and only just told me that my participation this Thursday was very good. BUT it doesn’t make sense... coz, I’ve been THIS active since the 2nd lesson(the first one I couldn’t participate at all coz my lappy just wont allow me to post any comment no matter what I try).. so I ask her if she could tell me why I got 15/30 when I’ve ALWAYS been this active. . .AND THEN SHE IGNORE MY EMAIL. Win ler lor....= .=”
Anyway~ my parents came over for this past 1 week break^^ , and they bought me a new Macbook pro~!! Wheee!! Although I told them I’ll get it when I’m back in dec or if there’s a fair or sth here, but they went ahead and bought it for me~ so happy... Now I’ve got a lappy that can type dots.
Anyway~ I’m getting fed-up with my housemates already, they’re no angels. Hsemate A doesn’t wish to contribute to practically everything in the house. HsemateB complains so much about minor stuff, or about housemate A till I’m getting sick of her. The reasons that makes B the one that pisses me off so much that I’ve got to come here to let out steam and stop denying that she’s very irritating are
1- her English SUCKS( I have proof okay? Even the Shop assistant can’t understand what she says), and still complain about other ppl’s English AND hint very obviously that her English is good.
2- she is VERY RUDE eg: instead of saying ‘excuse me’ she says ‘go away’
3- she is a BITCH. . .(personal thought coz of bad experience with her and im not gonna b posting the incident)
4- bad liar obviously. . . her food stock takes up more than half of the whole friggin fridge. Pratically 90% of the food belongs to her and the weight was so bad that the plastic shelf/compartments/board (whatever, the thing that divides the fridge into compartments) CRACKED. Well there was a small crack already on one of the plastics but she has to go and crack another one and enlarge the existing one. . . =.=. The part that irritates me is thah, she still can open up the fridge, show me the stuff inside and blame Taiwan girl for buying so much stuff.
Haiz... The only reason why I care about the fridge is coz, if anything goes wrong WE all have to pay for damages when the ppl comes for inspection next friday. I don’t want to pay for damages I never cause.
Steam’s let off. . . hopefully I find a new hse and move out asap. . .There's this really nice house near school that I'm applying for~ hopefully i can get it, along with 3 other friends~ ^^
Anyway~
Some of the pics from the places my parents and I went to in melb
Dumb and cute looking penguin~
I like this fish~ taken at melb aquarium
Jellyfish!!! XD they look cute ne~
First wombat i've seen in my life~ looks like a black pig
That's a wallaby~ a smaller and cuter version of a kangaroo
Tour bus that we took~
Flock of birds~ i thought they still looked 'toot'
check for penguins under cars~ that's after viewing the penguin parade, they are really small, maybe little bigger than yr normal 500ml of water bottle??
Randomly~
some pics of my sch lib~ i love the design of the building, esp at night~ ^^
The building~
Inside the building (just outside library)
The library! ^^
